Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you. To say I am touched and profoundly grateful for your kind words of encouragement would be an understatement. I’ve read and reread your comments and they have been enormously comforting.
I thought it was time to give you an update and at the same time tell you about a conversation I had with one of my very best French friends who calls me every day.
After six weeks in the hospital My-Reason-For-Living-In-France (MRFLIF) has returned home. He is “fragile” as the French would say. Charlotte refuses to leave his side. When the bedroom door is closed she cries until I open it for her so that she can lie down on the floor next to the bed.
It is so sweet and yet so sad.
I really don’t know much more than what I’m telling you. There will be more tests and then we’ll see what the future holds.
Now, let me tell you about one of my conversations with Chantal.
We have been friends for more than 20 years and for one of those inexplicable reasons that can happen in life we hadn’t talked for a couple of years when she called after discovering that MRFLIF was sick. It’s curious that life sometimes takes over and we do not put the time into friendships that they deserve. Still, our true blue relationships are always there waiting to be resumed where we left off in the past. That’s precisely what happened with Chantal and me. It’s the magic of friendship.
Chantal has had her share of grief and unhappiness and has come out on the other side. She told me that she is happy now and went on to explain how that transpired.
“I was depressed and unhappy and it took me a long time to figure out how to pull myself out of the misery,” she said. “It wasn’t that I didn’t have reason to be anxious, depressed, and at times feel hopeless, but I realized that if I continued down that road my life would be unbearable.
“Finally I figured out the ‘formula’ that helped turn everything around. I came to understand that one must accept what life gives us even if we are responsible for bad decisions that resulted in our predicaments. We cannot change the past, it serves no purpose to dwell on it. I’m not saying that we can’t change certain situations, but I am saying that there are times when we must ‘ride the wave’ and wait for the calm. It will come. There will be resolution and life is a balance of the good and the bad, but if we accept when we are powerless and put our energy behind something — anything — positive we’ll be alright.”
When I told her that she had discovered the Serenity Prayer she was thrilled. She had never heard of it, but had, through her struggles, intelligence and, she said, her spirituality, discovered it on her own.
I’ll be back soon to talk about Christmas because in spite of everything I have always loved Christmas. I’ve started decorating and intend to make every moment as joyous as possible.
Again and again, thank you for staying with me.
Je vous embrasse toujours. xo