This year’s resolution is simple: I’m not getting involved in new years’ resolutions. Instead, I’ve decided to take control of my life — with a little outside help.
First I made a mental list of what I consider my major faults and shortcomings so that we could address them head-on. I thought I would share some of my “favorites” with you, the ones that have been languishing for too many years unattended with serious action, so that you could see the scope of my challenge.
2.) An undisciplined mind.
3.) Worthless anxiety (as opposed to legitimate anxiety).
4.) Eating for the wrong reasons, when worthless anxiety comes rushing in for example.
Clearly it was time to make some serious decisions and some positive moves. It all started with a conversation with our fantastic, new generalist. Our doctor retired. After the last couple of difficult months in our lives, she insisted that I make an appointment with her to discuss how I was feeling. In our conversation I mentioned the above list and she said: “Why don’t you try hypnosis?”
So I did.
On Monday I had my first appointment with a charming young woman who interviewed me for an hour so that she could focus on my goals. She then led me to a pristine white bed — like in a doctor’s office — covered me with a blanket and began trying to work her magic. At first I couldn’t evacuate errant thoughts like, I need to get milk, I don’t think we have soap for the dishwasher, why didn’t I bring an umbrella — lots of annoying static like that. Then, ever so slowly I was in the moment in a whole new way. First I felt pleasantly heavy and then a marvelous lightness, almost floating.
Clearly one session won’t be sufficient for my agenda, but I have high hopes. My French niece, who is a doctor, thought the idea was brilliant as did another doctor I interviewed last week to insert her different take on beauty into one of the book chapters. She often recommends hypnosis for her patients she told me.
When I explained my project to a friend, she was vehemently opposed and told me she thought I was crazy. What do you think?
I’ll tell you if I feel I’m making serious progress. I’m definitely all in. Hope springs eternal.